Getting My Emotional Ass Handed to Me and Other Wonders...

There is stuff that just sets me off. I have an itchy trigger finger in certain areas in my life - still. I have been working on cranking down this itchy trigger finger for years and years and years, and every time I have a moment where I am less than perfect at controlling it, I get really down. "This will never change." "I'm an emotional cripple." "It will always be like this." I always wanna eat when that stuff happens. Eating is so friendly and grounding.

Well, my trigger finger went off last night. And when I went for spiritual guidance, it went like this: "You have some choices to make about how you wanna react to shit and that's about the size of it. Now get out there and get busy."

It sucks being reactive. It's such a hard thing to shake. It literally takes practice, which I am going to have to commit to. I need to commit to practicing control over my reactions, or once this thing is over, I will turn to high carb foods to ward off the sadness that comes from being so fricking human.

I know exactly where I get it from, and that doesn't keep me from doing it. So I am just going to have to practice not doing that!!!! Ugh. to be continued....

Also - DON'T EAT YAMS if you are on this diet, says the woman who just ate about a 1/2 cup of yams with her meal. I'm sure it will be OK in the broad spectrum of things and I won't notice a huge hit to my weight loss, but I wondered if those sweet little boogers weren't verboten, and it turns out they are. Strike 2 for the day.....

BTW - weigh in today = 228.6, a whole .2 pounds loss from yesterday. NO YAMS!

Also, I thought that this might be a good place to put the rules of what to look at when you plateau on this plan. If you look at these things and address them you are supposed to continue losing weight:

- not eating within a 1/2 of waking.

- not eating enough protein.

- Not drinking enough water.

- Not strictly adhering to the diet.

- Changes with your cycle

- Domino foods

– Artificial sweeteners

- Over exercising

The things that might be an issue for me are the YAMS, I need new salsa because mine has fruit in it (must have subconsciously wanted fruit when I picked it up, although I put on just enough for flavor - a very small amount), and the water thing. I could also eat a bit more food. I haven't been very hungry so I have been eating my three meals a day and that's it. No snacks or anything.

Well, tomorrow is another day. I will be working out today but nothing too strenuous.

See ya.